Seeking excellence, not perfection

Finally, I feel that I am good enough....Perfectionism no longer rules my life. Instead of seeking perfection, I seek excellence. After all, reaching perfection isn't even possible in this fallen world.

If my body needs to eat, I eat. There's no use fighting against physiology. In a battle of nature versus my will, of course nature shall win. Even if I starve to death by the strength of my will, nature still wins. Physically, the solution is to work with rather than against nature; spiritually, the solution is contentment.

Appreciating God's handiwork

God is a great artist and master engineer. He created the unique design of every person in existence, including me. The human body is a beautiful, complex machine and an elegant work of art. Who am I to critique God's work?

From now on I treat my body with compassion. That means I take care of my health by sleeping enough, doing gentle and enjoyable exercise every day, and of course eating a daily portion of healthy food. This also means no longer comparing my body to others and forcing myself to maintain a static weight.

Instead, I realize with thankfulness that God purposely designed me the way I am.

Anorexia: the inversion of beauty

Beauty is a gift that is given by God, the Author of beauty, and it cannot be achieved by striving.

Fashion and beauty aren't the same....In fact they're opposites, because by definition fashion is passing, yet true beauty is timeless. Anorexia inverts and corrupts every naturally beautiful quality:

Intelligence declines due to the depletion of brainpower caused by malnutrition.

Vibrant energy fades as the starved person is just trying to survive.

Creativity and imagination also fade along with general mental ability.

A good sense of humor is replaced by no sense of humor at all.

Wisdom is eclipsed by the unwise decision to be anorexic.

Diligence disappears as starvation saps strength.

A calm, peaceful mind becomes troubled and anxious.

Beauty becomes ugliness, because illness isn't pretty.

Anorexics tend to believe they're unique, but they're just like all of the other anorexics. Anorexia may seem spiritual, but it is actually a carnal practice. Anorexics may convince themselves that they're pursuing purity when they are actually engaging in sin...a very deceitful sin indeed.