Eve

When I look at paintings of Eve, why do I have tears in my eyes?

Am I tapping into a collective memory that reaches back to the beginning of time, when humanity was naked and unashamed?

Are they tears shed for the fallen world -- and tears of joy because God has given us redemption?

The root of this anorexia is quite deep. Being thin makes me look childlike rather than feminine...because I long to be innocent, and I'm afraid to grow up; I long to be small and taken care of, like a child. By not eating, perhaps I won't be naked and ashamed, and will reverse the first sin.