For awhile now, I have been harming my body by slow starvation...though I didn't exactly intend to. The Yom Kippur fast made me realize this is a serious problem. Being underweight, the fast caused great pain and even became dangerous.
Though the damage isn't seen outside, there is damage inside my body. This is a shame; I have sinned by causing harm to my body, the temple of God. Forgive me, Lord...and I pray for restoration.
When I look in the mirror, I see someone ill...and if I appear so gaunt physically, there must be mental and spiritual problems also. Right now I am afraid, and I need healing....During this fast, I thought I would die because my body just couldn't handle the malnourishment any longer.
Now I am fasting from fasting; if asceticism tempts me to vanity and harms my body, then eating in a normal way is actually more holy.
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