There are people who are afflicted with medical problems unfairly; perhaps they were born with a condition. Then there are those who make poor choices that lead to medical problems, even when blessed with good health. Forgive me, Lord, for ending up with these medical problems as a natural consequence of my sin.
Though I pray for health, I know I don't deserve Your favor...especially because there are true victims who need healing. Even so, they aren't always healed, though they did nothing to deserve the condition that they have. They deserve healing, and I do not.
If I end up with a permanent medical problem, or even if I reduce my own lifespan, I must accept the consequences of my sinful actions. Still, I selfishly pray for complete healing, as well as the healing of others who are true victims of illness. After all, You are a God of healing; I'm not sure what I've done to my body, and I am afraid. Yet I kneel before You in repentance and pray for the restoration of my health.
If there is any good to come of this...I've become a gourmet cook of sorts, a surprising result of anorexia.
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