If not for God's grace, I would still be anorexic. Thankfully, He released me from the grip of that horrible curse. Now I've given up striving to conform my body to a certain image...which is vanity and a gradual death based upon the lie that somehow, starvation makes one beautiful and spiritual.
Jesus warns, "Beware the leaven of the Pharisees..." that is, the influence of their teachings. The Pharisees are synonymous with hypocrites, and the influence of hypocrisy is corruption. Anorexia is a hypocrisy of sorts. God didn't design the body to function in a constant state of emaciation. The underweight me isn't the real me.
Lord, please change my aesthetic sense so that I no longer perceive beauty in the unnatural state of starvation.
A healthy, lean body is elegant and genuinely beautiful, unlike the freakishness of anorexia. God designed my body not for excess fatness or thinness, but for healthy, beautiful balance. Therefore, today I pray for a change of heart. God's plans and designs are higher than mine, and I am tired of striving in vain for my own way. Since my heart is so untrustworthy, I give my plans and all I am to God.
Today, I pray to be content with my physical form at last, and I thank God for creating this healthy, functional, unique body to house my spirit and the Holy Spirit.
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